A Beautiful Thing

by Kate Nash..



All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish I was your favourite smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
I wish that we could see if we could be something

Giving thanks

I dont know what changed, exactly. Looking back, everything was exactly was it was. Some days I laid in bed crying over the enormity of everything, and others I decided to say "screw it!" and go party with my friends, leaving the stress behind. I don't know what I'd done differently to get myself where I am right now..
I took a weekend trip to tallahasee with Crystal and Patty. Something about the time away made a world of difference. Just getting myself away from everything- from the travesty that is my room, my unemployment.. all of my instabilities. When I came back- starry eyed and still in love with the city and rid of my infatuation with the past- I was refreshed. Within a week,new goals still fresh in my mind I registered for classes in spring, had the most amazing weekend of my life, dropped a painful love interest and picked up a new comfortabley exciting one, got a job, and was offered a house with my two best friends- free of rent!
Even now, I have no idea what happened while I was at FSU for my entire world to be so differnt to come home to, but I'm amazingly grateful. My mom's actually proud of me, gas is in my tank, I'm no longer a burden on my friends... I truly feel so unworthy.. I don't feel like I've done a thing for all of this to happen for me, it just fell into my lap.
I prayed when i got home for FSU... i prayed for my future, my present my heart and my family. recently I've also been a little discouraged on the reality of God... Maybe I'm just being dramatic, but I don't see what else has changed.. my prayers were answered. I've never been an overly religous person, less than most by far.. but all I took was a trip to Tally. I could not be more grateful.