Because I know I'll want to remember these later:
** My motto: I would rather risk it all living with passion and fervor and love, than hold myself back even a single moment
**I go to cities alone all the time. It's okay to be spontaneous. You'll make friends there. Don't be scared <3 style="font-weight: bold;">I want to be beautiful for just one day so that maybe, even for that one day, someone would want me or maybe even love me..
** 3 weeks ago, I found a video of my 21 year old boyfriend sexually forcing himself on a boy. We were together 4 years. my secret-- I still love him.
** I donated blood to get tested for a disease because I don't have medical insurance.
** I've never told a stranger a secret before but your post on myspace seemed the best and you seem nice.. I'm scared to tell my mom the pills make me not me.
** I went to the principal spilling my friends secret that her dad threatened to kill her, not to save her life, but to get out of an anatomy test.
** I'm so afraid of becoming a manipulative bad person, and I catch myself doing it and I don't want to be that girl.. I'm scared I won't always catch myself.
** I have had hard feelings toward one of my step children because she acts just like her mother does and will probably turn out just like the hoe.
** I forgot his number. It feels amazing. Almost as good as when he loved me.
**I'm in love with my boyfriend but almost everything he knows about me is a lie, I'm so ashamed.
** I wanna fuck George Bush
** I want to live with Dad because Moms dogs are making my life difficult. I've becomed ashamed of home.
Wednesday, September 17
Post secret set up a project these past few days so that you could leave your number on the bulletin and text your secrets to a stranger.
I began the night in my normal fashion, completely revolving around myself and my issues with Tampa and Erik Massie, and whatever else. Although even while sending out my texts I almost felt like an impostor. Like my secrets weren't real, and I was taking up time and space for other peopls secrets. And besides, what the hell do I know about anything? I was just having fun and trying this new idea out. It was a nice idea. All these people were writing about how the exprience changed their lives, and I found myself jealous. Me, of all people, who is in need of somethign life changing! Why aren't I getting any of these great secrets!?
Well, an hour ago, I got my wish. Or rather, made it happen. Id noticed a name popping up frequently along with some others, reaching out to listen. I then noticed that same name come up, heartbroken that no one had answered her texts, and she felt more alone than ever. Not that my secrets in ANY way compare, but I remember how let down I was when no one answered a particular one of mine, and how personal I took it. I tracked her number back a few pages and texted her myself.
We talked for not long, maybe ten minutes? And tonight she told me I saved her life. I have since been near speechless and dumbfounded. I don't even know what I did, but she credited her entire life to me. Who the hell am I?? Suddenly I see how selfish I was being.. I have been for a while now. Immediatly I dropped my phone down and prayed, thanking God for this exprience, for allowing me to be there for this woman, this mother, and to watch over her. I have this strange attachment to her, a real love, where I worry for her safety later on. I hope to God she finds peace soon.
Tonight changed me forever.
too stunned to even cry ::
"you saved a life. I know nothing about you, yet, tonight you saved my life...Tonight I just wanted someone, anyone to listen. You did that. Thank you... I will do my best. your efforts will not be in vein. I promise. I owe you my life and I will forever be in your debt. All because youre a genuine person. Thank you, for everything"
I began the night in my normal fashion, completely revolving around myself and my issues with Tampa and Erik Massie, and whatever else. Although even while sending out my texts I almost felt like an impostor. Like my secrets weren't real, and I was taking up time and space for other peopls secrets. And besides, what the hell do I know about anything? I was just having fun and trying this new idea out. It was a nice idea. All these people were writing about how the exprience changed their lives, and I found myself jealous. Me, of all people, who is in need of somethign life changing! Why aren't I getting any of these great secrets!?
Well, an hour ago, I got my wish. Or rather, made it happen. Id noticed a name popping up frequently along with some others, reaching out to listen. I then noticed that same name come up, heartbroken that no one had answered her texts, and she felt more alone than ever. Not that my secrets in ANY way compare, but I remember how let down I was when no one answered a particular one of mine, and how personal I took it. I tracked her number back a few pages and texted her myself.
We talked for not long, maybe ten minutes? And tonight she told me I saved her life. I have since been near speechless and dumbfounded. I don't even know what I did, but she credited her entire life to me. Who the hell am I?? Suddenly I see how selfish I was being.. I have been for a while now. Immediatly I dropped my phone down and prayed, thanking God for this exprience, for allowing me to be there for this woman, this mother, and to watch over her. I have this strange attachment to her, a real love, where I worry for her safety later on. I hope to God she finds peace soon.
Tonight changed me forever.
too stunned to even cry ::
"you saved a life. I know nothing about you, yet, tonight you saved my life...Tonight I just wanted someone, anyone to listen. You did that. Thank you... I will do my best. your efforts will not be in vein. I promise. I owe you my life and I will forever be in your debt. All because youre a genuine person. Thank you, for everything"
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